My brother died soon after my Senior year of high school began. I was 17. He was 15. He fell off a cliff overlooking Snow Canyon State Park. That was the beginning of the darkest year of my family's life.
Today in Sunday School we reviewed when the prophet Alma asks the people if they "are willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort, and to stand as witnesses of God at all times and in all things, and in all places that ye may be in, even until death, that ye may be redeemed of God, and be numbered with those of the first resurrection, that ye may have eternal life" (Alma 18:9).
The teacher then asked if we had any stories to tell about people who had mourned with and comforted us. I thought of my friends during my Senior year of high school. They were a gift from God and carried me through my grief.
The day after Zach died, there was a knock on the front door. I opened it to see all my friends from Seminary Council - Brother Bushman, Laura, Akayleia, Cortney, and Wesley - standing on the front porch. I immediately started sobbing and they all put their arms around me, held me, and prayed with me.
A week after Zach died, Akayleia and Tiffany picked me up and took me to the Homecoming football game. I don't remember who won the game, but I remember my friends put my hoodie over my head so no one would recognize me. They snuck me in and we sat on the opposing side where the bleachers were practically empty. Some friends who knew I was there came and joined us. I wish I could remember everyone who came over.
Jolene came to my house as soon as I told her Zach had died. She stayed with me the whole day and came back every time I needed her, whether I asked her to or not. A few days after his death, Jolene, Rosie, and Melissa even made me laugh so hard that I peed my pants. Then I had to hug Rosie's grandma who kept whispering, "I'm so sorry" while trying to sneak downstairs to change my wet pants! They gave me some Huggies a few days later as a joke that started my laughing all over again. It felt so good to laugh.
Robyn came up to my house many times. She always listened to me. She understood when I didn't feel or act like myself during debate class. She and Wes and I sat in his car outside my house and listened to the song "From Where You Are" by Josh Groban. I cried and didn't feel embarrassed.
Wes and Robyn and Laura W. took me to Outback Steakhouse for dinner, just so I could get out of the house.
When I could not get out of bed, Akayleia sat on my bed and read a book to me and rubbed my back.
Everyone in Seminary signed giant cards for me with encouraging messages and compliments. It helped to know so many people cared about me.
Everyone on RASK Council signed a book for me. I still have it upstairs on the book shelf.
I broke down once during a Seminary lesson about how families can be forever. I left the room and shut myself in the seminary council office and sobbed on the floor. Brother Bushman and Wes came in to check on me. Wes and I then ditched school and he took me to Chili's for lunch.
Another late night I was having panic attacks. I called Laura, but she was out with Austin. Her mom took a message and I eventually fell asleep. Around midnight, the phone rang. It was Laura calling me back. I fell apart again when I answered, and she said a prayer for me over the phone. I felt peace once again.
Even after months had passed, my friends did not forget about me. One Saturday Heidi, Michael, Laura, Austin, and some other friends stopped by my house. They were on their way to Pine Valley to go sledding and play in the snow. They picked me up and off we went. It meant so much to me to be included.
I received condolence cards in the mail from high school people I barely knew, but who still cared about me. My entire AP Spanish class, mostly filled with Mexican people I barely knew, even made me cards! I later dropped that class, but kept the cards.